i think i should blog only when i have something to say. otherwise, it's just a waste of time. i should be asleep right now because i have a driving test tomorrow morning. i'm feeling the pre exam stress. i'll probably get sweaty palms and churning gastric juices tomorrow. anyway a few days ago i decided to apply to berkeley, you know, for fun. i even got to filling up my particulars. that's when the camp computer crashed. maybe it was divine intervention. so i went home and had a talk with my mum. i guess i'm still a long way from learning not to regret the path you've chosen and thinking about the long term instead of short term. i think i've been very fickle minded and undecisive. and so i've gotta stop thinking about taking u-turns. see, this worrying about my studies can only mean one thing: that my ns life is coming to an end.

p.s. this was a classic example of self censorship. i kept it vague and less specific because i sound pathetically conflicted enough.