this week i wondered if i would be able to survive in the real world. would i be able to impress my boss and out wit other competitiors? or will i languish in non recognition. i've gotten too used to keeping a low profile. i wondered if i had changed much from my sec school days. sure, i talk a lot more cock now, but i'm still as insecure and undriven as ever. i realised i haven't changed from this time last year. i'm still failing my soc's like nobody's business and i still play with my hair. i still stone from time to time. i wonder if people will ever respect me. or if i'll ever find my true calling. or if i'll ever sell a t shirt to anyone. how much it takes to find love. how much it takes to accept myself for who i am.